alcoholics and overclocking?

[TheMightyBuck]

i'm an alcoholic, and have been sober since oct 2, 2003.

i'm just wondering if there are any other alcoholic overclockers....

whether you're in recovery, or still suffering, post here, and talk.

i can tell u one thing, my pc doesn't get neglected now, and my life is a lot better.

anybody else out there?

[David]

Congratulations on beating the habit - I dont personally know anyone else who has suffered from alcoholism, but I can imagine that such a condition cannot be easy to deal with. I don't usually drink much myself - the odd drink every month or two at most.

[TheMightyBuck]

beating the habit is easy, ,beating the disease is a lifetime struggle, as i understand.

the addictive personality follows everywhere.

addiction to alcohol is just a symptom. choosing drinking over having money, your girlfriend, your rent money, your job.... i've chosen a drink over all of those.

addiction to tribes2, buying stuff, etc..... i just have to watch out, and think about how it affects everything.

[(HR)Titan]

first of all CONGRATS for beating that addiction
i think , many of us here are hooked up on computers and ocing

[Orange Fire.]

Originally posted by TheMightyBuck
beating the habit is easy, ,beating the disease is a lifetime struggle, as i understand.

the addictive personality follows everywhere.

addiction to alcohol is just a symptom. choosing drinking over having money, your girlfriend, your rent money, your job.... i've chosen a drink over all of those.

addiction to tribes2, buying stuff, etc..... i just have to watch out, and think about how it affects everything.

That's why you gotta just be smart in the first place and " NOT DRINK " You just avoid the whole situation and you are fine. You dont have to worry about being addicted or being an alcoholic or have to deal with beating the lifetime struggle... Drinking is a wast of time, money, and health..
-This is for all you up comming teen's.
-Dont drink... As cut and dry as that may sound.. you will thank your self in the furture..
-On the other hand.. If your one of those kid's who has to fit in or just go with the flow of thing's with your friend's .. know what just go ahead and wast your life away.. look at the testimonials from these guy's.. .. Trust me you dont want to live this way..
-The effect's of Alcohol include

1.Brain -Loss of memory

-Confusion
-Hallucinations
-Fits

2.Nervous system -Tingling and loss of sensation
in sensation in the hands and
feet.

3.Muscles -Weakness
-Loss of muscle tissue.

4.Heart -High blood pressure
-Irregular pulse
-Enlarge heart

5.Liver -Severe swelling & pain
-Inflamed liver
-Cirrhosis
-Liver cancer

6.Stomach -Lining becomes inflamed
-Bleeding
-Ulcers

7.Intestines -Inflammation
-Bleeding
-Ulcers
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------------------------WHAT"S THE RESULT?----------------------
---------------------------------DEATH--------------------------------
-Orange Fire.

[stockhatch]

Alcoholism is no good, but I do drink sometimes...maybe more than I should, who knows. Being on the 'puter trashed is quite fun in my opinion. It never gets in the way of normal activities though...sounds like an alcoholic in denial huh? Hehe... Congrats on being clean though.

AC

[SeanOMatic]

Alcoholism is the only disease you can get yelled at for having.



;)

[MuEagle05]

Originally posted by Orange Fire.


... Drinking is a wast of time, money, and health..


Overclocking eats your money, time, and I'm sure there's some health effect out there. From one addiction to the next. Haha, but it's so much fun! Sorry, just causing trouble.

Good job on dealing with the alcoholism.

[rogerdugans]

Obsessive behavior is quite common around here. ;)
Alcoholism/addiction may be less so, but I do know that there are a number of members who are recovering.

I battled for many years.

Congrats, amigo, and keep up the good work!

[qualhiveldorf]

alcoholism runs deep through my family, so im just not going to drink (or rarely)

That is relly great that you have stopped. Keep it up man!

[tom10167]

My ex girlfriend's mom was an alcoholic, every bad day she had she went to AA and felt better, pretty cool if you ask me. You think maybe you could focus that lifestyle on something like excercise, working, or some sort of community service? You'd really be helping yourself out that way, and congratulations, the first year comes up in October. :)

[SewerBeing]

Well, I have tried beer (gotta love germany, I can legally drink there) and may I add its the worst thing I have ever tasted. But anyway, congrats for kicking the habit.

[Malpine Walis]

Originally posted by SeanOMatic

Alcoholism is the only disease you can get yelled at for having.



Actually no. The smiley was nice but truth be known, I am a psychiatric social worker and I deal with people with mental illnesses every day. Despite the ads you see on TV for antidepressants, the fact is that popular culture still holds a low opinion of mental illness.

Several times a year I have to go to my state capitol to deal with nonsense like bills to restrict public funding from the “able bodied”. Few people have an issue with helping people who cannot work because they have heart disease, blindness or diabetes. If someone has a disorder of the brain that is somehow different.

Think about it for a second. Is not your brain part of who you are? If you develop a disorder of the brain does that not mean that you have serious problems? Yet some people feel that mental illness is somehow not a “real” disease.

[/threadjack]

Actually, back in my misspent youth I managed to get hooked on both heroin and cocaine. Unlike alcohol, anyone can get hooked on either of those. Today, I know that I cannot ever try even a little bit of either as that might put me back on the path to total dependence. Both drug are just too fun to get anywhere near.

It is true that many people feel a compulsion to buy new hardware and they are likely to go out and get something when they get some money. But hardware is not in the same league with real drugs. When I first decided to get off drugs I did not see money as green paper that could buy me stuff. If I had $20 in my hands I saw the drugs that that money could buy. What got me through that point in my life was not some vision of the future where I could by a $300 graphics card. What got me past that point was the idea that one day I could spend money for something other that getting past dealing with withdrawal sickness.

[OKJEFF4]

See, I live in Oklahoma. We have alcoholics, and most go unchecked. I've known of people in high school dying of liver failure. I know what you feel, and think of it this way, you are dodging a bullet that should have hit your head. Good luck.

Oh, and Malpine, I have a lot of respect for you too. I live in the meth capital of the world, and it's nasty, I tell you.

[Wicked Klown]

I myself got high one night and it took me four years to come back down. You name it I tried it, came close to death a few times. So far I've been clean for 4 years and I hope I stay that way. Sure sometimes it does cross my mind but I know thats not a life I wish to live again.

[oo_7]

Originally posted by Orange Fire.


That's why you gotta just be smart in the first place and " NOT DRINK " You just avoid the whole situation and you are fine. You dont have to worry about being addicted or being an alcoholic or have to deal with beating the lifetime struggle... Drinking is a wast of time, money, and health..
-This is for all you up comming teen's.
-Dont drink... As cut and dry as that may sound.. you will thank your self in the furture..
-On the other hand.. If your one of those kid's who has to fit in or just go with the flow of thing's with your friend's .. know what just go ahead and wast your life away.. look at the testimonials from these guy's.. .. Trust me you dont want to live this way..


U make is sound so bad ?? I love to have a beer every now and then (most weekends);) . BUT i dont go and get Drunk... There is Nothing wrong with enjoying a beer with your mates and having a BQ or just meeting up in the local pub. Beer is NOT bad, Its What u do with it that is. I train in the gym every day, i MTB most days and play loads of sports, and having a few beers on a weekend in Not killing me.

@TheMightyBuck: Congratulation m8.
:clap:

[Steve978]

Its a hard call really, I have a strong belief in enjoying life, but when do you draw the line, at things that can damage your health? Personally I'm about to goto college and I expect I'll do some drinking.

[TheMightyBuck]

Unlike alcohol, anyone can get hooked on either of those

u couldn't be more wrong.... ANYONE can be an alcoholic.

and thank god for public funding for treatment centers. i took advantage of my counties mental health programs, and i could not have paid for anything, as i was dead broke and homeless.


drinking is fine. excessive drinking leads to alcoholism.

anyone can be an alcoholic, but no one is born to be one. the only way to develope the disease is by drinking. some people need to drink a lot more than others.

[Oni]

PM Mr. B about this thread. I think he's 6 or 7 years sober now :)

[BigRed]

Originally posted by Malpine Walis


Actually no. The smiley was nice but truth be known, I am a psychiatric social worker and I deal with people with mental illnesses every day. Despite the ads you see on TV for antidepressants, the fact is that popular culture still holds a low opinion of mental illness.


Its not that bad in WA. Theres lots of money for those with mental illnesses who cant work.

I have severe PTSD (Had it for over 3 years now, just wont go away, argh!) which causes uber depression and my insomina (although getting only 45min of sleep a night does come in handy for LAN's :D). Sometimes im not able to work for a few days at a time (usually happens once every couple months or so) but horray for state/job benifits, I get lots of paid days off because of all that.
Workers comp is a wonderful thing :p

[tekOC]

Being wasted on the computer -- yes, thats a good time :D

GL on the recovery dude, it must be hard from what I know...

I'm not an alcoholic, but when theres a party in town I'm there, and you know what I'll be doing? Drinking, oh cant forget pot

im a bad person I know :(

[krag]

Hmmmmm, interesting topic. And a broad spectrum of addiction philosophies.....

I'll add another fragment to the spectrum.;)

I have been involved in addiction rehabilitation for the last 9 years (1 yr as inpatient client & 8 yrs counseling, serving). I was an I.V. drug user for the previous 11 (meth, coke mainly) and drank like a fish. I grew up on "party hardy" and ended up with "insane in te membrane."

I do not believe in the diesease concept...all that does is shift blame away from you. It is a choice that locks you in and is very hard to remove.

There is only one way to true freedom...personal relationship with J.C.

I am not "in recovery"...I am in VICTORY!!!!:D

Alcohol is a trap. You play around too much you will get caught.

Before you start freakin' on me...
I am not slamming anyone...just voicing what I know.

[altec]

Alcoholic and Addict here, I'm 18 too. I've been sober now for less than 30 days, but my record holds at 1yr. Cant seem to beat the habit myself....Malpine said it all too well: "Cocaine is just too fun".

[TheMightyBuck]

i belive in being like jesus, and when i think about that, i'm most into my recovery.

as for the disease concept.... alcoholism is recognized as an actual disease, by the American Medical Assosiation, or whoever does that stuff.

if professionals say it's a disease, then i'll believe them, and take ~some~ of their suggestions as to recovery.

back to JC. i went to 13 years of catholic school, was confirmed cathoolic, and all that. i haven't been to church in two years, and my faith has never been stronger. God gave me a way out, and i took. he never turned his back on me, always gave me another chance. the least i can do is try to live like Him, and when i do that, my life is golden.

that's all i have to say about that.

[krag]

Originally posted by TheMightyBuck
i belive in being like jesus, and when i think about that, i'm most into my recovery.

as for the disease concept.... alcoholism is recognized as an actual disease, by the American Medical Assosiation, or whoever does that stuff.

if professionals say it's a disease, then i'll believe them, and take ~some~ of their suggestions as to recovery.

back to JC. i went to 13 years of catholic school, was confirmed cathoolic, and all that. i haven't been to church in two years, and my faith has never been stronger. God gave me a way out, and i took. he never turned his back on me, always gave me another chance. the least i can do is try to live like Him, and when i do that, my life is golden.

that's all i have to say about that.

Very good & spoken well.

Yet, don't give your trust to a lab coat so easily. Science changes all the time. Theories & methodologies as well as accepted "scientific truths" are changing constantly. What was once true to science usually changes later. 100 years ago the scientific community whole heartedly agreed that it would be impossible for humans to operate a land vehicle which traveled faster than 30mph! They reasoned that the human brain could not process images or make desisions fast enough to keep from crashing. Heh! The diesease concept eradictes any responsibility from the addict...which in fact will keep that person defeated or "in continual recovery." Yet....without J.C. in the middle of it...thats all there is.

[Orange Fire.]

I Make it sound so bad????....... hahaha your funny.

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Only Fact's bud ;)


Originally posted by oo_7


U make is sound so bad ?? I love to have a beer every now and then (most weekends);) . BUT i dont go and get Drunk... There is Nothing wrong with enjoying a beer with your mates and having a BQ or just meeting up in the local pub. Beer is NOT bad, Its What u do with it that is. I train in the gym every day, i MTB most days and play loads of sports, and having a few beers on a weekend in Not killing me.


hehe.. Yes i see where you are comming from. Yet that's where it all start's .. Just having a beer every now and then or just having a beer at a BBQ with your mate's. Just having one beer every now and then seem's harmless, but very few can do that... One beer lead's to another and then the next you know your gone. And if you do only drink one beer every now and then that's good! Only if the whole world could see it that way (lol), as long as you can keep it that way i dont think the effect's of drinking will hit you too soon... it will just prolong the prosses on you.. lol ;) Some can do it .. some cant. You said you train in the gym every day and do lot's of sports.. Well i do the same and i can tell you that i benifit from not drinking. If your a really big fitness guy just remember and have this in your mind..

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1. Muscles -Weakness
-Loss of muscle tissue

4.Heart -High blood pressure
-Irregular pulse
-Enlarge heart

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Yes it's not killing you now... You will feel the effect's when you get older.. But it's really all at your own discretion .. your not really going to alway's have someone down your back about it.. If you choose to do it that's your problem and your the one who is going to have to deal with it. As what you said " beer is NOT bad " dude take a look around and see the people suffering from it. Listen to these guy's Testimonials.

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To every man his own.
-Orange Fire.

[Wicked Klown]

Originally posted by krag

I do not believe in the diesease concept...all that does is shift blame away from you. It is a choice that locks you in and is very hard to remove.


I'll agree with you on that note. Myself I could careless what the AMA says it's not a diesease. After all a diesease is something that happens such as cancer or diabetes. However drinking and taking drugs is a choice not always the best choice but still none the less a choice. After all no one holds a person down and says do it or else. You have the choice to say no or to say yes, even if you do say yes doesn't mean you have to do it everyday.

[SK8]

hrm hrm hrm, Strait Edge is the way. i dont do drugs and get drunk, bc i think it stupid paying $4 to $6 dollas a drink for no reason when your gonna act dumb and pee it out in a few hrs. Btw im 17 and i know all about the high school drinkin scene and i am no part of it bc im too busy working and being on my computer, i dont care if i get made fun of bc now the cops are arresting alot of ppl for partying (personal victory :) ) !

[Orange Fire.]

Originally posted by SK8
hrm hrm hrm, Strait Edge is the way. i dont do drugs and get drunk, bc i think it stupid paying $4 to $6 dollas a drink for no reason when your gonna act dumb and pee it out in a few hrs. Btw im 17 and i know all about the high school drinkin scene and i am no part of it bc im too busy working and being on my computer, i dont care if i get made fun of bc now the cops are arresting alot of ppl for partying (personal victory :) ) !

:eek: Alright man! you said it!.. im with you bro, me and you can kick it any day. :D

[9mmCensor]

Everything in moderation.

I have been cutting back my caffien (coke, and coffee) but its hard. The habit of wakig up and drinking it and smelling it is difficult to give up, but hey, I sleep abit better now.

I drink, underage, but in moderation... I dont go out of my way to get drunk. I am more addicted to video games than anything else though.

[eli]

Originally posted by krag


There is only one way to true freedom...personal relationship with J.C.

I am not "in recovery"...I am in VICTORY!!!!:D

Alcohol is a trap. You play around too much you will get caught.

Before you start freakin' on me...
I am not slamming anyone...just voicing what I know.

I concur. :D

"It ain't what you are, it is what you can become."

DC Talk

[Thelemac]

I'm not gonna go in and edit anything, cause I don't wanna have to find it.

Just keep in mind we don't allow religious discussions here, so please keep that out of this one.

Thanks.

[oo_7]

I can understand those of you who do not drink or do "other" substances as its your life and thats the way you like it.
I on the other hand Love to have a drink every now and then, in fact i am sitting out on the pourch with my laptop and a BIG cocktail next to it. Just because i am having a drink, it dose not mean i will be getting drunk. :p

Every man to his own.:beer:

oo_7

[germanjulian]

lol.... I drink about 12 beers a year....

used to drink loads when I was 16 every weekend. not any more...

kinda borring and waste of money I am crazy enough as it is....

my g/f told me if you get drunk and part and go to sleep lets say at 0am or so your liver doesnt get enough rest for the whole night. that means when you eat anything the next day all the toxins in your food dont get filtere out and get stored as fat deposits (the ones which are hard to loose). the liver then takes 3 days to recover fully.

now lets see BINGE drinking is huge in britain and about 60% of the population between 18 and 30 goes out every weekend getting litterally smashed.... = big problme... even the government is trying to improve things here in the UK.

cant wait to pay my taxes and pay all those people with liver problems and cancers cause they smoke or eat unhealthy. something around the 5 billon pound mark every year...

[germanjulian]

Originally posted by Thelemac
Just keep in mind we don't allow religious discussions here, so please keep that out of this one.

Thanks.


julians jumps in joy up and down hoping this will happen all over the world not just in 1 forum and on the internet...

[Orange Fire.]

Originally posted by germanjulian



julians jumps in joy up and down hoping this will happen all over the world not just in 1 forum and on the internet...

Haha, i know how funny.
-Orange Fire.

[Krowa 02]

I used to be straight edge. But then I got drunk, had a great time, and did it a few more times.

Bottom line, I can control myself, and enjoy a drink or two. Its not going to kill you to have a beer now and then.

Im glad to see someone has become sober, and through with it, it takes so much power to throw it.

Im happy for you man :).

[sandman001]

I've done a few things, alcohol being the least of which, I'm still not sure about my opinion of alcohol. Sure, it can be a bad thing, but it can also be a very good thing.

Just know how to use it, that's my motto for all things like this.

[Orange Fire.]

That's cool man.. everyone has there motto's.. Right on bra.
-Orange Fire.

[stockhatch]

Originally posted by germanjulian
my g/f told me if you get drunk and part and go to sleep lets say at 0am or so your liver doesnt get enough rest for the whole night.

LOL!! Where do I begin with this statement? :p

AC

[Orange Fire.]

Originally posted by stockhatch


LOL!! Where do I begin with this statement? :p

AC

I dont know.. where ever you want buddy.
-Orange Fire.

[Pinky]

Clean since 1/31/99.

"Alcoholism" is a tad passe, when alcoholics anonymous was formed the primary and widely used drug was alcohol. Since the late 1930s more drugs have become 'mainstream'. Were all these drugs present at the time of AA's formation it would likely have been called "Addicts Anonymous". Little hint -- there is only one "disease", it's called addiction. As people we have preferences, and addicts choose downers, uppers, and in-betweeners, but it has nothing to do with alcohol or crack or pot... the drugs are but a symptom of a larger issue.

[Pinky]

Originally posted by sandman001
I've done a few things, alcohol being the least of which, I'm still not sure about my opinion of alcohol. Sure, it can be a bad thing, but it can also be a very good thing.

Just know how to use it, that's my motto for all things like this.

Disagree -- and you may not be an addict. Compulsive drug abuse is not something will power or self-determination can cure the obsession for. People with this problem cannot stop, it's an uncontrollable urge that defies reason.

[eXCeSS]

Originally posted by Krowa 02
I used to be straight edge. But then I got drunk, had a great time, and did it a few more times.

Bottom line, I can control myself, and enjoy a drink or two. Its not going to kill you to have a beer now and then.

Im glad to see someone has become sober, and through with it, it takes so much power to throw it.

Im happy for you man :).

EDGE BREAKER!!!! :P

I'm only 15 and I've made the choice for myself that it would be best for me to avoid drugs/alcohol. I used to smoke pot everyday in 5th and 6th grade. It drained all the money I had and it was stupid. Ive found better things to do and I dont think that being in an altered state of mind for a few hours is worth anything to me. My Mom is an alchoholic and I've seen the **** that alchohol can do to everyone this person in contact with.

Everyone says the whole "moderation" thing but then it slowly begins to become more and more frequent, and down the drain goes that friend.

True Till Death

[Disputant]

I don't know that I was ever considered an alcoholic, but I used to be pretty heavy social drinker. Stopped a year ago next week, problem is my coffee consumption when up two fold. I do have a lot more money for computer parts not picking up bar tabs though.

[mbentley]

alcoholism isn't something that is easy to beat...

luckily i can pretty safely say that i am not an alcoholic, however, i was known to get trashed pretty horribly at college in my first semester... that was one horrible semester for my grades... after that, i became a bit wiser and my grades improved and i am now riding on a very nice gpa... amazing how much easier it is to learn when you are not hung over...

luckily for me, i had some good friends help me thru drinking and they got my straightened out... i still drink socially, but i can control my drinking now. and it is definitely for the best.

[Cerberus2k7]

I drink sometimes. Just something I do before I go to clubs mainly. Smoking, I used to do drugs every day, mainly weed and acid. Now I mainly do it when i'm very depressed and just want to forget about things.

[Captain Newbie]

Most things in moderation are safe. Getting drunk is NOT FUN.

It's much more fun to get high on your mad gaming skillz in my opinion. That, and unless your monitor has craptacular refresh problems, your head doesn't hurt later.

[Crash893]

Most things in moderation are safe. Getting drunk is NOT FUN.

It's much more fun to get high on your mad gaming skillz in my opinion. That, and unless your monitor has craptacular refresh problems, your head doesn't hurt later.


i think thats up to personal opinion

getting drunk can be quite fun and im not being starcastic either
if your getting drunk 9 times a week then you have a problem
if you do some shots with your freinds in celebration good times imho

some people have a problem with it others done

[Pinky]

I don't know that I was ever considered an alcoholic, but I used to be pretty heavy social drinker. Stopped a year ago next week, problem is my coffee consumption when up two fold. I do have a lot more money for computer parts not picking up bar tabs though.

If you're counting days you've been clean then you probably fit as a "troubled" individual. The fact anyone feels the need to have to stop a certain behavior indicates a self-acknowledgement that the behavior is causing them undue harm and either needs to be stopped or lessened.

In other words -- normal people don't need to 'stop' because they never 'started' in the first place.

Before I ever identified myself as addicted I knew I consumed drugs differently than the others I used with (yes, I'm including alchohol as a drug here :rolleyes: ). I would be one of the last people to go to bed, or leave the bar, put the bong down, snorth the last line, and/or pass out. I was also one who would get started before the rest. It eventually became common for me to wake up and immediately start using whatever chemical I could get my hands on. In time this behavior was second nature and I didn't even have to think about using, I just DID.

5 years, 4 months today. I know exactly how long I've been clean because it's been a hell of a ride in the past 5 years and wouldn't trade my new life for anything any drug ever provided me. Part of knowing where I will be tomorrow is not forgetting where I was yesterday.

Congrats on the year clean. :)

[Pinky]

i think thats up to personal opinion

getting drunk can be quite fun and im not being starcastic either
if your getting drunk 9 times a week then you have a problem
if you do some shots with your freinds in celebration good times imho

some people have a problem with it others done

I rarely agree with crash, but there was a time early in college I can remember still having fun under the influence (remember urinating on people's lawns in downtown Albany leaving frat parties :p ). But the clock stopped there and the party didn't end for a few years...

Not everyone who uses drugs or even drugs often for a while will end up addicted, but many will. Some people are addicted and haven't a clue they are (I certainly didn't have a clue, nor was I interested in being told I was). Eventually people either have some form of awakening or die.

I'm glad to see that we're not demonizing drugs in this thread. They have their place. Just because I can't use them doesn't mean you can't. It's important, however, that people be given the knowledge to know that there are potentially fatal consequences behind drug use and the lifestyle that goes with it... and the line crossed to becoming "out of control" is often invisible because you're looking so forward to the next "one" you're not looking for it. ;)

[TheMightyBuck]

heavy alcoholic drinking is like a lot of other things.... jaywalking, for example.

at first, u cross the street once in a while, the corner is too far away, so you're careful, and u don't do it that often.

then, u have a close call, u misjudge the speed of a car, and have to run really fast to avoid it, but u make it. one day, too lazy to walk to the corner, u run accross half of the lanes, wait for traffic, then cross the other two lanes, darting through traffic. a cop walking a beat sees you, and gives you a 20 dollar ticket, as he's seen u before.

after a few weeks of crossing at the corner, you cross in the middle of the block again. as you're running, you step in a pothole, and severely sprain your ankle. you go to the ER, and everything's fine in a month.

a month later, there you are, ,darting in and out of traffic. becoming more and more confident in your 'jaywalking' skills, you start to take bigger and bigger chances. then, you get hit. not very hard, but you get the wind knocked out of you, and get a concusion. at the hospital, you get a ticket after a cop makes out a police report.

you've gotten two tickets, a broken ankle, a concussion, and a lot of aggrevation, just for not crossing at the corner. a few months later, YOU'RE AT IT AGAIN! something illegal, and bad for your safety, but you're still doing it. your injuries and tickets are soon forgotten, and you are taking chances again.

then you get hit. and it's bad. you break some ribs, get a second concussion, a broken wrist, and a broken thigh.

your family starts to get worried, ,so they come and talk to you. they're worried about you, and wonder why you don't cross at the corners, like everyone else. it's stupid, you say, and you don't know why you do it, but you're done with it, and won't do it again.

you're good for a while, ,but eventually, YOU START DOIN' IT AGAIN! this time, you cause an accident, as a car swerves to avoid you. with a few broken ribs, and whiplash, you are the lucky one, as someone else's car gets totalled, etc.....

with four tickets for the same offense, you're forced to go to court, and the judge looks at you like you're an idiot. you think about it, and decide that you need to stop. you know it's unsafe, unlawful, and downright stupid.

but when you get healthy again, you just can't help it. you have this URGE to dart in between traffic. you have this compulsion that makes you cut corners, and take shortcuts. this starts to show up in all aspects of your life.

you try and stop, BUT YOU CAN'T. people yell at you, YOU IDIOT, GET OUTTA MY WAY! your family writes you off as some crazy nut-job that likes to get hit by cars.

::POOF:: you realize that your life in UNMANAGEABLE. you can't live with this behaviour, but you can't stop it. you can't help it. you need to jay-walk, but you want to stop.

you land in the hospital with severe injuries. you have a collapsed lung, many broken bones, and severe internal injuries. once you get out of the intensive care unit, you are not let free, but are admitted to a psychiatric ward, because YOU ARE A DANGER TO YOURSELF AND OTHERS. none of the head doctors know why you do this. they can't help you. they don't know how to help you. YOU can't even help you. this compulsion has taken your life away.




ok folks, wherever i said 'jay-walk,' insert 'drink,' or 'smoke,' or 'snort,' and change the injuries to other mishaps, like cirhosis of the liver, high blood pressure, stomach cancer, etc... and wherever there's jaywalking ticket, insert public intoxication, DUI, DWI, disorderly conduct, whatever....

why does the man keep jaywalking? doesn't he know that it hurts him? yes, he knows. but he keeps doing it.